I don’t know about you, but this week has had its ups and downs, and there were some good moments and then there were moments that were not so great.
There were moments where I had interaction with friends by phone or visit, and then there were long periods where I didn’t hear from anyone. I had moments where I felt sad or even angry because this isolation is starting to get to me. I had moments where I felt worried about what’s going to happen next and what am I going to do to get through this time?
Ultimately, I surrendered that to God this afternoon when I was out on my walk. The one good thing I have every day is that I get out and I walk. During my walk I often find myself praying. Whatever I’m feeling, whatever is bothering me, I just choose to give it to God and give him thanks for watching over me.
I have found myself praying over the homes that I walk by, asking God to protect each family in their homes. I just try to focus on what I can do. And, try not to lose heart.
This year was supposed to be about moving forward, and getting out on my own and advancing. Instead, this year has been about disappointments, setbacks, discouragement. It does not mean giving up. Instead it means trusting God. It does not mean losing hope. Instead it means having a little bit of faith and courage. It’s about letting go of the things that hold you down. Even a balloon needs to have its string cut so that it can fly.
This year has been full of things that make us angry, worrisome and fearful, and all that I have to say about that is to let it go. Whatever is out of your hands, trust that God has something better. Let the worries go.
I saw a post not too long ago that really spoke to me, and it said that, “worry is a miss use of creativity.“ So, instead of worrying I try to be more creative, reconnecting with drawing as I have been doing. I tried to connect with people by sending photographs and postcards. Even though I may not hear from somebody, at least I let them know I am thinking of them. And, many people are in my thoughts these days.
I’ve thought about friends long gone, and I have been thinking about family, and what will happen after the quarantine has lifted. I think about my future,and trying to move on.
I think sometimes, we look at this time as a bad time but, really, it is a time that God slows us down, so that we will draw near to him. In his word it says that if we draw near to him, he will draw near to us. So, it is time to reflect and to let go, and to receive peace from God who gives it in abundance when we ask him for it.
If you are feeling the struggle, or withdrawn during this time because of quarantine and COVID-19, I just pray for you to have peace and God‘s comfort in your life. Have strength and courage to keep on doing your best. Don’t lose contact with those you love. Make a difference in somebody’s life.